beloved bestie...

So, since he dont let me post at fb... let me post it here aites... yup2... he is my bestie... known since 2009... no matter how we fight... no matter how we argue... he was there for me... when im down, i called him... n when its he's turn to be down... he will call me... as time pass by... there are alot of changes in this world.. people change too... we both see it too... the way we talk... the way we change our image... and the way we define : LOVE... its totally different... but that doesnt affect our friendship at all... we were betrayed... we were dumped... and we were ignored by the person we love... but my love to u will never fade dear bestie... u will forever be my best bestie ever... :) maybe we both still need to talk more... and spend more time together.. All those memories are kept in my heart... n i promise... this time round... im will be listening more to u... thats for sure...

Im back

i just hate to be someone who is so down hearted and people look down on me due to my sincerety. i love my family, yes i do, and i've been wondering what am i supposed to do so that i we can get back together as one. too many people sacrificed for us and yet we are not more than appreciating. i really can say much now. i cant help anyone when i cant even hep myself. i dont wish to be in this state but the surrounding made me down. too much things to think off when im alone. i feel like theres no one that i cn turn to at times when im down. im not a loner but i can always be.

the best is i cn just pray hard on whats gonna happen the next day each time i go to sleep. i noe i might be stupid in acting and thinking this way. but i just cant change. i love me for who i am and i hope people cn understand that to be someone much better than who the person is just too difficult. even if there is much improvement in a short time, probably the person is faking and cheating on his/herself. im trying my best to be myself so that i cn learn from my mistakes and that should be the way.

getting involve in relationships make me realise that i can be a good girlfriend but not a good wife. I noe this sounds weird but i just hate to play around in relationships. even if i do. i make sure i dont contact that guy forever. admitting my own mistakes and t give in is what make a relationship last long. The word is : TRUST. if u dont have trust then negative things can lead ur relationship go haywire for ur loved ones.

Afterall, if my family can accept me for a who i am, treasure me for good. I dont think no guy cant do the same thing. so, love my family first before u love me. afterall, i wont change for a guy who has no assurance to be my husband. thank u.

hopefully things change as i believe in miracle. i love all of u who care for me. i just dont noe to whom i should turn to. sorry bt tis is wat im feeling rite now.

sincerely,
me

Wow... its been so long that i last blog... i dont know wether u readers got miss me or not... hahaha... well... i dont know where to start off... all this while... when i stopped blogging i've been bz with this guy... n we were once... in a relationship... n now we are not... haiz... its a very sad n long story la... complicated n hard for me... i dont know wether he know how im feeling rite now but the pain is killing me...!!

Its a very though decision for me to make but i have to forget him tis once and forever... there's too many things dat i've been through with him... its a wonderful... happy... sad... tragic... n hardly an exeprience to me... Its difficult for me to let him go... but if its easy for him... i think y cant i...? i cant be always like tis... yaeh i noe its like my first love... but i have to move on n not stuck myself in this situation which will always make me sad n end up crying...

I was asked from him... to change myself... to upgrade myself n dont let myself down on others... n very sure i will... and i'll let him see that... sooon... n if he's reading this... all i can say is that we can... but its the matter of we want to move on or not... i really hope he's happy with his new life rite now...

To my frens... wish me all the best n hopefully we can get together quite often coz i miss all my frens dat have been part of me... hope i can learn new things n have new experience with the love n support from all my family n frens... love u all...

Always...
Ayu Imoots

IM MISSING ALL OF YOU GUYS...!!

Sharifah Arina

Fika and NadiaTeam Dark Knight...(i took this picture..)
especially the one in green...(..sobs...)Ajai..he's not in that pic but he's a part of them...

Hey all.. Im finally back... hahas.. time flies sooo fast... and its true man... im really missing all of u guys... this 27 March really hope i get to meet u guys again... da lame sey tk kua ngan korg... btw... sorry uh aku tk update korg... i changed my num and i pass it to Effa... N.. Just a piece of info.. aku da keje... tu pun korg leh tanye Effa... N lastly... Announcing>>> Ayu Imoots is Finally attached... hahaks... finally sey... nk tau sape...?? soon... u all will noe... ouhkaes... gtg ready... tc... hope to c u guys soon...

Love,

Ayu Imoots

Today actually i am supposed to follow my family to an outing to JE swimming complex.. But I dun wan toooo... I prefer spending my time whole day at GameHaven today.. Hahahaha..

Yup... Im at my soo called 'old' werkplace... Got my pay from Cik Adeq.. And play comp... It was at coming to 4 when i reached here... Accompany Kak Seri until her duty finishes... And I guess after this Im gonna meet Abg Kidd.. Kak Seri's new bf.. *curious*

It was great though... Knowing that I am leaving GameHaven... But I guess Im gonna miss this place... All the gamers.. All the noisy background.. All the staff (esp my auntie)... All the private roomss.. And of coz... My handsome good looking Boss... Nvr found any other boss like u before... Mr Eugene...!!

Well.. all the best for business.. I'll visit u guys anytime when Im freee...:)

Oh ya.. While Im at facebook... I took some quizzez... It was fun knowing more about myself.. And actually idk why I took this "Found out the Friend To Call" and the result was : Shaifful Parker!! and I commented, "Stop it lah ehk... tkkn dpt nyer...!!!"

Hahaha.. It was funny though knowing that Social Interview asked Mohd Yan.. "Does Ayu Imoots like hugs?" and he answered... " No..she likes me!" Hahaha... Old story sia.. Secondary school moments... Siak je ko Yan... Ko uat aku ketawe2 sendiri sia..

Oklah... That's all for today... Hope all of you enjoy ur weekends...!!

(I'll update the pictures on the Phase Test day soooon)

Sadness beyond my fake smile

I don't know whats' next that's gonna happen. The way im going is getting worser. I have problems all around me. At school, at home... Haiz...!! People hate n reject me everywhere. Luckily.. I have Effa, Nadia and Fika.. Although all the cabot class.. All the lepak is not a good thing.. But at least... I can release stress.

Yesterday... I was in a peace of mind when i heard tht they are not coming for LPDX lesson.. So I tot I should come end 10.. On my way to train.. I text Nadia and she say she will not b coming to school... My mind was like.. Ok..! Wats happening..? Thereafter, I text effa.. presuming that she also will b coming at 10.. I was a little upset when she says that.. SHE'S ALREADY IN SCHOOL..! So.. I went to school to noe wats happening..

I came when LPDX was nearly to end.. When Fika and Effa saw me.. They say that they are not attending the class at 10 and they are going to Bedok.. Nk melawat.. I was like... Huh..? Nadia is to blame.. Coz Fika asked her to contact me but she did not.. Haha.. Tkpelah korg.. Aku lagi suke tk g skola..!!

We went to ITE BB to fetch Aaaahmad..! Lame sia tunggu dier... Fika tros PENG! When Ahmad came with B'jul.. Fika buat muke.. Die tknk lyn siols.. Tp end up da ok.. Biaselah... Kate Aaaahmad...! Hahahaha... Korg klaka uh... Tkleh bertembung...! Kekek..!

After that we took a train to Bedok... But I drop at Outram.. time to go for work oreadi...!

All and all I tot today was the most kesiao day... I enjoy it when I see Fika and Aaaahmad (Thts how Fika say his name) irritate each other.. Hahahaha...Thanks... U gerls really cheer me up... Although I can't follow u gerls to Bedok.. At least I forget abt all my problems for that moment..!

I LOVE EFFA, FIKA, AND NADIA!!

After Cosmetic Course

At Class nothing to do... LazyBug!

This is in the Changing Room

Effa.. The Best Photographer

Fika abeh..!! Hahaha..

During my autie's wedding.. We're at the playground..

Zila...Ayu...Su

One thorn among the roses

I have nothing to post but its great going to pennisula with my siblings yesterday. Though, I made a serious mistake which can affect my life in future.